feeling blue

Jean just told me Clifton died! i was like which Clifton, it took me few minutes to recall...
He was my senior from HTM, i didnt noe he was one of the NSF men who died.Watched chinese news and i cant even recognised him or his name...He was quite fit u noe...sometimes its just worrying...
Iamindarnbadmood today!
mummy just shouted i said something i shouldnt to daphane jie jie and tat edmund would noe and bla bla bla...i yelled back..so i assume its supposed to be some discreet issues and i just leaked some words,the matter's gettin out of hand...
thanx to the irritating level of humidity tat totally kills me..

to add the last straw on the Camel's back,Bad news was...TML's the last day for the IT fair ....and for some misunderstanding or wat i tot huimin says theres no sales of cameras for this fair, the ceci told me she got a camera from the fair like just now!
OK OK! nvm...i try to decieve myself and gave myself adequate reasons namely

-tml's daddy's day, we cant just disappear to somewhere esp when last week's bdae thingy was already so bad
-i'm jobless soon and yup maybe i should miss this fair becos i just spent quite alot for daddy's stuff,lenses and the number of birthdays this month
-tml's sunday, i hate human squeezing sandwich situation
-maybe i dun really wan to go suntec for some reason and another
-and prolly it might be wasting of time and i dun really have the mood to...well its still under the *wan to* but not a *need to* list...hmmmm...next fair next fair...
and well things wasnt tat good today altho it was nice having the company when *thunderstorm strike. i had a nice listening ear and encouragement last nite, but today's discouragement i can just put it aside first ba, i refuse to accept it,maybe when i truely understand wat the lyrics really meant...thanks..time past quick today and i even had an evening nap when i reached home..

OK i successfully convinced myself in a self denial state.


if i do really matter to u, would things be like that in the first place..i'm really very very upset..i had the urge to update the discreet blog..last entry mar 2007? i wasnt tat vexed for 1 year

ok fine...my mood is worse for that sudden news...*mind shut!