wells, hmmm u guys are really discouraging..=_='' *idiots.
ok fine. this time round i knew i had to trust you guys instead of my feelings..
Damn! i didnt noe this time it meant so hard.
yes, i'm still still upset, tossed in bed, teared, got tired and posted the previous entry on from my hp...ok stupid me..
but i'm good...really...glad that this week's packed..esp the weekends..
give myself 2 weeks...Oei...this is the first time i really felt such distinct hurt feelings..So yeah...after the 18th??? it will be truly over ok..NO MORE FEELINGS for him...( i told myself that will be the last time i cry for him) just like him on the other end telling himself that he had taken me out from his life =)
*smiles
wells a few things i have to get used,
- feeling a little empty on my finger
- not having the pokeyness from the necklace on my neck
- getting used to him not being the first and the last in my inbox
- weekends without him
and stop loving him. iwill.
i almost texted him last nite..but i cooled myself down and tot, its not worth..i've held on all these while but maybe he was tired..
*just dun let me see him from now till 18th, i'm sure i can do it. *
and Eric u are an ass la..lol..i'm sorry i wasnt much affected with u the other time. Hahahah...But thanks for being here..And Low..thanks for being sarcastic, i'll be fine..i dun need ur first time *laughs*smiles..
Sayang, i'm really really alright..i love u..*hugs
Queens: at least now i noe i will see the full attendence at my wedding in future..
changing bf is like changing new shoes! really...the feeling is the same...its pain but u have to get used to it..for a better one on u?
Eugene, i put too much into this relationship. Maybe we or more precised, me, some time.
Things didnt turned nasty, i still love that smile on u. So keep tat on, it cheered me, so do use tat and i am sure ur next gal will love it as much as i DID =)
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on a sidenote,
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwwww i need a haircut badly man!! BTW, i didnt remove my streaks of purple and red extentions on my hair for work. Fiona said it was nice and ok not to remove=) hees...more purples if i hit town soon =)
the kids asked whether i dyed my hair? den i replied no
hmmm...maybe i'll meet my gf to acc me for my haircut this Fri, if not Mr Low will have to pei me to the salon on sat den=)
note: i will open my blog to public as long as i think i am ok to do it k=) soon soon *cross fingers.
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