Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Boy is on Business Trip 8 Aug - 29 Aug

Time Flies, the next thing we know, we are in the month of August.

Few changes in my life.
I have moved on to a Human Resources Business Partner role in Harris Caprock Communications effective June 27th.
I'm making a major decision in my life with Eugene later this month.
Im turning 23 year old like in less than a week!


Eugene will be away for a 3 weeks business trip, missing some of the important days of my life.
My birthday definitely, our 4th anniversary tgt and also our flat selection date.

Its tough you know, to make such decsion, to tell yourself this is the guy that i am going to entrust my next few decades to.
I really dunno.

Cos marriage and happiness is like a stake, a gamble. You wont know what you get until you live your life with it.
I Love this man here. I dun deny.
He is my first man and i definitely want him to be my last too. But dilemma comes in.

Making this choice, will i lose my chances to meet better guys out there?
Will he love me and dote me till the end of time?
Will i regret?

He is the first guy so frankly there's no one that i can compare him to.

But...

I know that he changed for me
I know that he tried
i know that he really loves me
I know that i mean alot to him

is that enough to commit a lifttime?

I hear things from my peers, friends, families.
Yes, he is not handsome as a hunk but he is really adorable and charming to me
Yes, he is not tall and macho but i think he is just nice my partner (yeah i do worry that our children will turn out to be balls =( , but im sure he will convince me that they are adorable)
Yes, he is not that understanding, sweet or romantic, but im sure he is trying and i hope he is constantly trying.
Yes, he smokes, but he promised that he will quit and i believe that he will keep to his promise.

Argh...he is really trying to confuse me as much as trying to convince me.
But honestly speaking, any last minute decisions can be made as long as we have not signed the papers yet.

Well till then... Even though he never reads, i wanna say im missing you now~


Its less than a year to my graduation if things

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