Friday, June 12, 2009

the fateful day

As much as i wished to skip the 11th June 2009, we had a hard time.

I had a tough day.

it all started with waking up to the dawn, preparing all the materials and got ready of the execution.
its not easy to face the dear ones noeing they are next on ur list. Having to keep the emotions down the stomach and do the job aint simple.

Suppressing the overflowing tears and watching them tear.. Its like forcing yorself to be a walking zombie without feelings.. Seeing my colleagues break down after the whole activity even ached my heart further...

i admit i cried when Caren and Joe left, when Irene eventually cried out when i knew that finally its over..wanted to join them so much for the badminton session but i just couldnt bring myself to..
Mercs cab sucks...
the 1 hour $42+ cab was torturous..i was on the verge to throwing up when i reached the school..i couldnt even walk properly...and i was told i looked pale...
After the payment i had to cool myself down and i was starving badly becos i haven had anything since morning...

emotions breakdown+starvation+car sick

it put me down to a bottomless pit..seriously i really wished someone could be there to asure i am fine...but that became my duty for others ...i'm really glad that most understand my role...
But thankks for the 85 porridge, the rubbish food and of cos the crash at Aunty Rita's place and the webcam nonsense...they brought back the craze me...
yeah i seriously think when i am crazy i really become crazy..

I had manual car rides...=_='''SUCKS...hate bad drivers....

I'm glad Friday is a day off....

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