Taking the thoughts he wont come by. Maybe only when he knew things really screwed up?
Decided to share this. I happened to chance upon an article unfortunately when i feel its not the appropriate timing.

7 signs you're dating down.

1) He doesnt broaden your horizons.
When you are the one who chooses the restaurants, plan your datesand logistics etc.
A partner who well suited to you will open up your mind to things you've never been exposed to you. Remember, you're his girlfren, not his assistant or mentor.
( i'm neutral on this )

2) Your frens dun like him.
If a pal suggests that perhaps you both arent set to be in this century's Romeo and Juliet, the reservations of your beau are probably justifiable.
( I thought things are getting real better here. Time helps in justifying. True Frens believes in what i believe. )

3) He puts you down.
Nothing is an inexcusable as a man insulting your looks, taste and any other of you brilliance that makes you you. A major part of a relationship is accepting the person-neuroses, idiosyncrasies and all.
He is being insensative and downright nasty.
( Sometimes he really makes me feel down with his words, a little inferior )

4) He doesnt keep his word.
Word is bond.
Any guys that can't keep big promises is just trying to see how much they can get away with. It signals lack of thoughtfulness for your feelings and an trustworthy personality- not for someone your mum would approve of.
( He never take details. I forgotten the meaning of promise. )

5)You're embarrassed to introduce him.
The idea of introducing him to your friends or parents make you cringe.There's one element of him which you dun respect and it makes you feel that being with him reflects badly on him
If you cant visualise the both of you being a couple, no amount of sex chemistry is going to keep the relationship strong.
( Maybe initially when i agreed on a date i was unsure, but when we were tgt he is always my pride, my proud. My choice.)

6) He doesnt make you smile.
In the first stages of love, drama can be incredibly intoxicating.
But after awhile, it can get tiresome and you'll both be struck with who you really are.
If he cant make you giggle so hard you feel like you've done a good half hour of core-strenghtening excercise, it'll be next to impossible to keep your original love spark alive.
( Gives me a sour feeling. I fell in love with his smile. But i seldom see that anymore. Maybe when he is playing with Colgate, but it made me wonder, do you feel happy and looked forward to see me, to be with me? or am i here becos i am part of your rountine life now?
I recalled and reminisced the smiles we had. The smiles which brough both of us tgt. I missed.

7) You make excuses for him.
if you're constantly having to justify behavior to your frens or worse stiill, to yourself there's something seriously wrong with this relationship.
A worthwhile guy doesnt need you to make excuses for him for what he does, because when he screws up, he's man enough to realise it and make amends himself. (
( I shant comment. A neutral party sees this more clearly. Maybe to him i am not perfect either, but i have tried my best to be understanding but certain things just cant be tolerated. )

This demoralises me. I really dunno what will come of this relationship.I find it very hard to convince myself
I can conclude that this is a place for my relieve of emotions.