wat does it means?

i told myself never to get upset in our relationship.

But i feel this becomes very frequent nowadays, does it spells something is wrong?
its little little things that shouldnt even happen in the first place..But the tear glands just went outta control inevitably.

im not sure about this feeling. Do u?
Issit that the r/s is still strong becos i still gets upset, ill still cry.
Does it mean tat if one day, i dun cry means i've let go??

I really dunno if im a good gf? i dunno if i am going to be ur one? i dunno if you are my one.

But i try to get things off my mind by having a dip. U can think of alot of things in the pool, u can tear without knowing you did, you can breath in a hard one and let go of the breath all at once everytime u surface.
But i dun wish i will ever get reliance of it.

IM FINE..dun worry.