Sunday, June 17, 2007

complicated

my apologies ~
somehow i regretted the actions to words and practically everything tat's related...
it hurts and it really does...onli if i were in the right mind to noe it when i was happily being entertained..
i should learn not to be influenced tat easily and join in with those randoms..i'll probably have to grow and learn to follow my own perceptions and realise wat is my own opinion upon such issues...
i felt ashamed for myself when i knew i might have hurt someone whom i nv intented to...

regrets..i'm sorry if u meant i were the one...sincerely...cos i noe u read...=Z i was tramatised when i read u noe...
sometimes i think i shd just shut my mouth and remain silence...prob just deal with it with a smile...sorry...
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my job~
i dun deny i love my job, but i could sense the stress and responsibilities building up...i wont want to disappoint so it adds on to the nervousness and stressed at times..
i requested to view the party video and ya...i really want to know and get a few tips here and there to complete the pic of a party i could satisfy the kids..

i dun deny i'm really worried for tml's party leading...Garry's gonna close the shop for this group, many will be looking, ppl will be judging...potential party hosts will be dropping bu to decide whether they will hold their parties tml...the GM will be observing...hwee sung will be there...tell me how can i not be scared? i kept complaining y is it me! but i no they have their reasons to put me in charge for tml...thanks garry and adrian for helping me today with so many qns and trying to assure the paranoid me...

just u noe...hmmmm....dunno how to say.....i noe they will be there for me, Adrain Garry and Yee ling will back me up but its just....hais...its not tat i have no confidence...but it just seems to much all of a sudden...i thought parties all the while should be just fun and joy...free from the above issues...

and tml's Father's day! =) hmmmmm....hais...wateva...Garry said he would sent me the videos though email but i think tat forgetful joker had forgotten clean bout it..

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my day~

woke up late...thanks to dumb dumb's morning msg tat i managed to wake up in time after silencing my alarm earlier...the party with JenJen was mediocre...not very good for today...but i was happy and excited cos the birthday gal's name was JOY! and they called her joyjoy....it sounds so dear to me ok..

and ya...haha...i realise some ppl tend to do the little actions or i call it gesture? tat i owaes liked...haha...and i realised ajisen oso like!!! haha ..Garry's doin it as well gaga and i'm feeling so weird...haha...onli sayang, mok, dada and cldye noes ba...

they were toking bout the meaning behind certain hugs...freak...cant it be a warm and loving gesture! and he must corrupt the minds of us hu are innocent naive seeking ppl..i suppoese not all guys thing the same way! onli him...horny joker....

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msged daddy and gorgor and got to noe they not coming home early today so agreed for the dinner with dumb dumb this evening...and ya...funny him...cant live w/o jacket...wat a nice excuse...scared no AN QUAN GAN...lols...=_=''

headed to Ps spotlight to get things he want and to secret recipe for dinner...nice night!! but i forgotten our conversation...i admit i have short term memory!!!!hees... btw his drink really sucks...haha...

daddy bought supper back from geylang...haha the beancurd and you tiao which i did not really touch tonite...lols...and i was watching GUESS3, haha...GUO PING CHAO...reminds me of melvin and the ktv i promised...lols...i missed my duet partners....of cos...my shifu-KAH WOON!

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reality check~

its a clear fact....u can really tell how much a person puts u in their priority when it comes to little details and i suppose onlookers are the better observer....ya and i got the fact right....the tok on thurs was very to the point

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wells...i really dunno wat to say bout us but it doesnt seems to be working out ...the guessings , waitings, anticipatings and character....it seems to make things worse...

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